The Ups and Downs

Tomorrow is the dreaded day... sinus surgery.  And not just any sinus surgery.  I'm having everything done short of the shape of my nose changed (perhaps I should have asked for that to be included considering my deductible and co-pay).  What is wrong you are wondering (or perhaps you would rather not know)... a deviated septum, enlarged turbenates, a polyp, an opening where an opening does not belong and too narrow towards the back.  Each day multiple times a day I have had to stop myself from picking up the phone and canceling the surgery.  I'm not one for pain so this has me really anxious for tomorrow.  I have been thinking about the downsidesides and upsides of getting this surgery done hoping that the pluses outweigh the negatives.  Let's see how they pan out:

Downs:

1.  Pain and lots of it.

2.  Having to sleep sitting up for the first night post-surgery and at a 45 degree angle for the week following surgery.

3.  Lots and lots of post-op instructions - polysporin on a q-tip up my nose 4x a day, afrin spray every 12 hours, saline spray every hour, cool mist humidifier by bedside (crap! I forgot to get one!!!!) 8 oz of distilled water, salt and baking soda solution sprayed up my nose twice a day, antibiotics twice a day, and of course pain killers as prescribed.  I don't know how I'm going to remember that when I'm hopped up on pain killers.  I'll probably end up sticking the q-tips in my ears or something and drinking the baking soda solution.

4.  I'm afraid of more migraines which will be triggered by the pain of the surgery.

5.  No blowing my nose for a week (they didn't say anything about picking it though.... just kidding).

Ups:

1.  My ginormous co-pay and deductible can be charged to my American Express so at least I can get skymiles for my surgery.  Yeah!!!!

2.  hopefully no more sinus infections every time I get a cold.

3.  I have a legitimate reason for forgetting things for the next few days and for not doing things..."I'm so sorry... I just had surgery."  that gets you out of just about anything doesn't it????

4.  I get to try out some new soup flavors over the next couple of days.  yum!!! (I'm trying to be positive here)

5.  I have a legitimate excuse to go out in public in my hoodie and trackpants tomorrow (I was told to wear no make-up and loose comfortable clothing)

6.  My gratitude and love for my friends and family has deepened with all the offers of help and well wishes.  thanks you guys!!!

Looks like the ups have it so I have no choice but to go through with the surgery.  I don't know how long it will be before my next post.  Perhaps soon (depending on whether the pain meds are working and I'm not in pain , just goofy on pain killers- that could actually be an interesting post ... ) or whether I will be off-line completely.  Have fun blogging whether I join you or not!!